New beginnings

I recently realized that I don't hold on to the past for more than a day or two. I obsess over events at that point in time and I just let it go after. Life is far too short to re-live sad moments. What is the point? It brings back feelings of hurt and frustration all over again for no new reason. One of the advantages of living alone or even having a considerable chunk of alone time makes you examine yourself and experiences.

You begin to have clear insight for yourself and others. I have gotten quite good at this that, a lot of my friends suggest that I should become a therapist. It was a fascinating idea but I don’t think anyone can help someone unless they truly want to help themselves. So it’s actually a tricky question - how much job satisfaction do therapists actually get after a day's work. I guess we would never know given the complicated procedures involving 'confidentiality of information'

There’s a dialogue that Hugh grant says in the movie, 'music and lyrics' - 'I have very strong insight I would use it on myself but I don't have any problems so I can't' - I apologize if it’s not word for word but that was the essence of the dialogue. That line just blew me away - I realized that it wasn't his insight that led him to no problems. He had a wonderful attitude towards life.

He was a failing musician who couldn't come up with decent lyrics and made a living by performing his 'once upon a time hit songs' at birthday parties and shopping malls wearing 90's costume. Obviously the movie made a huge turnaround as the film progresses. But even before the success poured in he was content, happy and witty during his slump.

The only thing that keeps me going - making me all charged and enthusiastic is that there are better days to come. The universe has so much abundance that we are all going to benefit from the pearls of this abundance. When I see old pictures I suddenly find that my family and I have progressed so much from what we were - mentally and emotionally that it almost seems like another life. Were we that naive? I wonder what changed all that...I guess only time.

We often associate some songs with pockets of our life. It’s a natural process, our mind associates few things together and it’s a roll on process – you think of one thing and the other thoughts come naturally after. I associated Rihanna’s ‘umbrella’ with a difficult period I went through (because I heard that song a lot then) and whenever I heard it I ended up feeling depressed. I figured that this was a mere association of the circumstances. Instead of moping about it, I started hearing it while speeding in my gorgeous red Golf car for the past week and I seem to enjoy it so much more because I am in a much better place now. It’s all in the mind if you really want to change some aspects of your life you certainly can. You just need to make new memories!